Fucking computers... so frustrating... but you gotta love 'em!

Hmm... what should I do with my time? Something constructive(like writing a book)? Something useful(like emptying the dishwasher)? Something helpful(like fixing the computers)? Something that is a complete waste of time and will only make me lazier, despite the fact that it might be the only thing keeping me sane?

You: Like writing in a blog?

Austen: Precisely!

*sigh*

I should write more songs/poetry. They turn out very good, usually. I've written several already, and one of them has been made into a song.

Earlier today, I built a computer from scratch. Well, I attempted one, but got so frustrated with it that I deemed the piece of shit worthless and took out everything except for the motherboard. Then I moved on to the next computer (we have 4 broken...) and began to put it together, beginning with no RAM, no hard drive, no disk drive, no power supply, and a broken floppy drive (which I have yet to fix...). I put in the missing parts and connected everything that wasn't already connected (which was basically everything due to my experimentations with the interiors of computers at a young age...).

Eventually, it all was hooked up. I moved my computer with Ubuntu (the Linux-based system) off of the desk so I could use my monitor to experiment. I plugged up everything, with several things annoying me such as the lack of sufficient light and the pain that was developing in my back due to being hunched over a computer for the past 20 minutes, and turned it on. After a few tries, it finally worked. I was greatly relieved that I had finally managed to at least have it turn on and have the hard disk making noises, but the job wasn't finished yet.

For some reason, the video card in the computer was malfunctioning. I expected something like this to happen, because this is a very old computer. I had been prepared with another video card in case such a thing occurred. It was another old one, but I figured that, since it had never been used, it should work fine.

Well... It didn't. And I tried out the old video card again to no avail. I even switched monitors, once again with no effect.

So then, I moved this computer (the one with windows xp that I am using right now) away so I could attempt to use one more monitor for testing.

Something happened, mainly involving monitors with screws on the plug, and computers with screws in the plug, disrupting anyone who attempted to hook up the two.... Very frustrating, especially with such tiny parts. I tried all that I could to remove the screws. I used the smallest tools that I could. It didn't work. Eventually, I was led to use brute force, once again with no effect. Probably a stupid Idea anyway... don't use brute force with computer parts.....

So that didn't work, and by now I was thoroughly frustrated, in a messy room filled with errant computer parts. I had to navigate carefully around in order to even walk. For a few minutes, I paced around, my legs beginning to get restless, than I told myself to confront my frustration and clean my damn room!

So I drank some coffee for a burst of energy... (rather good coffee too... i think it's a different brand than usual...) and began to clean my room. I organized everything somewhat, just enough to keep me from going insane, and enough to be able to walk easily.

Then I got online. I ripped some CD's using Winamp. I made an announcement on myspace saying that I think it's stupid and I will no longer use it. I wrote a link to this blog. I took a picture of myself and edited it on mspaint to say "Goodbye, Myspace!" and set it as my default myspace picture. I went to my blog.

So that's my day. How was yours?

ketchup and such...

finally - something other than modest mouse!

and finally - something to do with my time! write in a blog!

I just realized how sad that sounds.... Do I really have nothing to do but this? Do I have no friends in which I can confide in and talk to or spend time with or have fun with or anything?

aw...

fuck...

So, anyway - I'm drowning out Morgan's Punk music by listening to the postal service in my room... good band... the effect is certainly elevated by these wonderful surround-sound speakers...

Somehow they manage to mesh both techno and calming music into one - which must be very difficult bcause techno is very energetic usually...

meh...

ketchup?

ketchup!

ketchup...

ketchup!-->


yay...

but how can you have ketchup without...

FRENCH FRIES!-->


music: Be Still My Heart - The Postal Service
room: in need of cleaning

absent-minded thoughts about my past

I should listen to someone other than modest mouse for once...

I've been listening to them and only them for about a week, although i did fall asleep listening to jack johnson on my ipod...

nothing is coming to mind... except for the music playing in my ears. I haven't listened to this album for a while, at least. I've been concentrating more on Modest Mouse's old albums like The Moon And Antarctica and such...

But this is a seriously good album. Good News For People Who Love Bad News is the title.... I think it might be my favorite album...

I've written all over my bed lyrics of songs that I like. It's getting challenging to find an empty space when hear some lyrics that I want to write. Many people think it's stupid that I'm writing lyrics to other people's songs on here and not my own work, but those are the people that would critisize my work to no end, so whatever I do will be wrong to them. And I'm not trying to "impress" anyone by doing this... it's just something I want to do. When I look at the lyrics, the song that they are from plays in my head... so it's just another way to hear songs without really hearing them. They would be on my wall as well, but this isn't exactly my house... we've been renting a house for the past 13 years.... since I was 6 months old...

13 years spent in this room... everything has been changed around so much... furniture stays the same... somewhat. My bookcase was replaced a few months ago... now it's at least one that doest fall apart if you touch it....

My dresser and my "toybox" have still stayed the same.... although they've moved everywhere in the room at one point or another...

God... I haven't opened that "toybox" in like a year... I should do that sometime... i might find something that interests me.

When I started, I remember, I had a crib right by the door and there was a small bed in the corner of the room... (i don't remember much else- i was like...1)

Eventually, when I was old enough, I was given a bed of my own... one that I was allowed to sleep in. Well, more like a queen-size matress on the floor, but whatever. A bed is a bed.

On the opposite side of the bed sat my desk, with my old shitty 64MB RAM computer... (I would describe it's faults in full if I weren't too lazy to get up and look for it...) I remember that it had no CD drive and that I had this computer game called "The Incredible Toon Machine"(which sounds like a little kids game but is actually still entertaining, despite being made in 1994...)- on CD of course. My computer had a floppy drive, and, of course, I thought CD drives and floppy drives were both the same thing, only in a different shape. I stuck the CD into the floppy drive and jammed it completely, ruining the CD and the drive.

And that was my first computer. What was I- like, 4? I started using computers at a very young age, and, of course, they were all PC's.

I was under the impression when I was little that apple computers were bad, mainly because I didn't know how to use them. I was completely a PC person. I still am. I understand that macs are incredibly more efficient for... basically everything... but still, I've been using a PC for about 2/3 of my life... I must learn how to convert to Mac.

Anyway, back to the topic at hand. For 4 or 5 years, I had that setup in my room, until my stepfather ordered me a loft bed. It is like a bunk bed, only the bottom part is a desk. On the side of the bed, there is a ladder-type thing that you climb up onto th bed with. The bed is two feet or so from the ceiling, so I had to learn not to bump my head on it.

This is the bed I have now. On the desk, there are tow computers, one being the one that I am typing on right this second, and another one with a completely different operating system than windows. It is a Linux-based system, only much simpler than true Linux. Honestly, I can't see the point in an operating system that can't run .exe's on it... but I'm going to give it a try.

...

is modest mouse still playing? oh, wait... it's on the last song in the album. Wow.

I've been typing for a while.

Like... a half-hour of non-stop thinking and typing.

Wow.

...

My mind has suddenly blanked.

So I will part.

Music: White Lies Yellow Teeth - Modest Mouse
Mood: Thoughtful.